I was wondering about Bella Thorne. It'll be hard for me to get the blood pumping through my head to post this.
In the movie "Blended," Bella Thorne was very tacky when she was in the tennis court dancing around. I know she found out about me, like being online and all, and she thinks, like a lotta people in a lotta situations, that she is doing something to get attention but saying it's tacky cuz she can't really do it unfortunately..) and saying it's tacky because of me. I believe she really had problems doing it or maybe people around her limited her freedom. She sounded like she had so much hidden in her when she spoke in the bathroom. Her voice was like magic bouncing around. You know.. I saw pictures of her when she was younger, and she looked more "normal" and not so different. It makes me think she got ahead for being witty and having racist casting agents. I wanted to be like attractive, but I didn't rush to the movies to do it. (I don't mean it in a bad way when I say the word rush and don't know what I should say to you. This is how I talk, and now I feel people are watching me.) So, she gets all this money and potpourri, and just because I'm a normal yet accomplished person otherwise, suddenly Tim Burton and others think I don't count.
What else? I said she was disgusting, and that's okay. It doesn't mean some perverted thing with 1 person who has a hissy reading this. It means something. It doesn't mean I deformed her face, and because I said that does not mean I did, neither. I meant she was being disgusting on purpose. I was on my cell. You didn't know I was on my cell, but I have an iPhone. Now, I lost respect for - I mean from - someone else. I have no relationship. No one thinks my life ever meant a shit like theirs. They proceeded to connect it to what else I said. I did take it back. What else I said was okay.. So, do you wanna talk about this? You don't call other people Asian. My dad thinks it's okay. I know what it was, though. I mean the reason. I'm not being mad, I just feel so sad. I even feel threatened sitting in my room trying to feel calm. We can't stop this issue, anyway, so don't worry about it. However necessary, this issue will fix itself. You can't wait for tomorrow to come, remember, somehow.
I thought a lotta other things.
So, this boy I am following now is reciting secret messages to me for the girl every day he posts. He seemed kind before, but he decided to attack me, like a lion. These messages are bothering me cuz he didn't do it before. Now, he's not on my side. This girl keeps coming up and ruining my life. She's fighting about attention from whoever, and others say it is okay.
Ellen DeGeneres is uncomfortable I cursed about noises in my room and yea who cares how she rolls? She is taking this way too far. I'm not cursing at her. I don't trust her intentions and think she is self-centered, a word that is allowed to be used, I mean she thinks she deserves to be attractive and we're all dumb, but I'm 1/2 Chinese too and my parents affected that! Self-centered is a psychological word-saver for not saying selfish in this case. Ha ha. I just find it rather entertaining. Her discomfort is not worth me being tortured by the secret noises. My parents bother me, too, though.
What else is there?
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